red or blue

Some say ignorance is bliss and sometimes I'm almost convinced. My son asked me the other day 'mom would you take the red or blue pill?' and I wanted to be able to confidently say I'd take te real world over the matrix and ignorance is bliss; but the profundity of the question struck me unable; because I think I am sucking down that matrix pill every day lately have been for most of my life perhaps and I haven't been far from Zanax or Prozac and alcohol induced anesthesia and tonite as I enjoyed the company of an off center friend who seems to meander in and out of society and this astral plane, seems to wander neither here nor there and always exactly wherever her heart takes her, she marches to a drummer all her own, tonite, with june, i think i decided NO, i wouldn't take the matrix pill; i can never remember which color is which, and right now i'm wondring if the barista earlier, cruelly, neglected to give me de-caf as I requested.